I've Always Wanted To Do A Little Modelling

I’ve never dreamed of being a famous supermodel or strutting down catwalks or gracing the pages of fashion magazines. I still don’t dream of these things. But I have always thought it would be fun to be able to say “why yes, I have done a little bit of modelling...” just on the off-chance somebody should one day ask.

The problem is that I have long hated photos of myself. I hated photos of myself because I hated the way I look. I hated the way I look because I had (have) low self-esteem and a poor self-image. But I’ve been working very hard at changing that for however-many years (becuase it isn't something you should just accept about yourself, it is something you can actively change to a certain extent) and I have started to come to a place where I accept myself and (shock, horror) actually like myself. At least a satisfactory portion of the time. While I am still gathering together my thoughts on THAT very personal journey I can say I am in a place where I feel comfortable enough to be in front of a camera when the occasion calls for it. I should be clear here, doing a bit of modelling for people did not improve my self esteem, but rather I felt good about saying yes because my self-esteem had already improved.

Modelling job the first: My sister is getting close to finishing her diploma and needed models for her portfolio. And so I got to take a foray into the swinging sixties! With one of Mum’s old bridesmaids dresses and my sister's amazing hair and makeup prowess I was transformed. While I have had hair and makeup done before (for weddings) I wouldn’t say I’m used to the experience. Day-to-day I don’t even put makeup on myself. It is a combination of awkward and fun. Getting to see each new stage in the mirror always interests me though.

Since a picture is worth a thousand words, here is a five thousand word essay on my first modelling experience:

Given my long history of loving to dress up it should be no surprise that I had an absolute blast with this.

Modelling job the second: Sometime later Tanith asked if I’d like to model some of her absolutely amazing hat creations so I said yay! Apart from getting a few hours to hang out with one of my closest friends, I got to pull out the fancy dresses I rarely have occasion to wear and dress up. We tried different hat/dress combinations and different places around the backyard. One thing I realised – I have absolutely no idea how to pose. What do you do with your hands? Where do you look? At least you’ll know my smiles are genuine. 

Do please check it out :)